the dream

'The dream',i never sleep since yesterday until this early morning.The reason why i can't sleep is because the same thing i worry about my future.Although i dunno what will be happen on me in the future but i would like to think 'HOW' can i change my life my future?It may just a dream in this moment but if i never think about it,i believe i will never have chance to geting a better life.dunno why the way to the destination is so far away and no matter how fast i trying to run i still can't reach it.i am tired but i keep telling myself that i got to do it,because it;s just my only hope and chances.it's been long time i never wrote blog,i remember i have write a blog lastime about why am i write blog because i felt better after say it out all of my secret and the pain.my health seem worse and worse,but i hope before i getting worse i can do it 'geting better life',so i will stay stronger facing to the sickness and fight with it alone.I BELIEVE MY LUCK WILL BE COMING SOON ONE DAY...WATCH UPS~ =)

what love mean

''what love mean?'',do you really know and understand the meaning of the love.It's mean complicated.I've learned a thing or two about love,it's push and shove,giving and giving in,giving up give,give,give but nothing's given.Three word to describe love is contradictions,constant attraction and distraction love.love hiding behind contraception deception,a radio without reception miscommunication and misconception.Conception of a life too early for light but just ripe for death.the depth of eyes.the windows to souls shattered into tears.love mean of the distance between me and you measured by lies and truths.love mean hurt and tired.i am tired deeply.I hope every things just a dream and it's gone after i wake up.love is a things that we can't guess up.

In the early morning

''In the early morning''i haven't sleep since yerterday.i have a lot question in my mind.i was worrying about my future,my healthy been more worse and worse now.I am still young now but does't mean that i am affraid about the dead,it's because i havent done a lot things yet.I wanted to take care of my mother and wait till my siblings having a sweet home before i go.If i really go in the second,i will like to tell 'you' i missing you all the time,and i know from we are together,in my mind i given myself a promise you ll be the one share my sadness and happyness.I will love you forever and with you no matter what.Everytime when you calling me maybe the way i talk is bad but i am happy when i see ur call.beside that,i was think human life is just simple,a human is waiting to pass the time from a second,minutes,hours and days till the end.every body got the chance to say bye to others to end of thier life.life is just shorten,still waiting for what,do somethings that is proud of urself,such like say i love you to ur lover or even ur parents,its may just a sentence but it will make the person remember you,not need to think,do it right now,still waiting the durian drop?YA!THE LIFE IS SHORTEN as the time u wait for durian drop.if you see this post,go online and hear song ''its too late to apologize''the song describe what i am trying to tell.bye~those is just my question.i have really do it but how about you?=)

pulau perhentian TRIP

''Pulau Perhentian TRIP'',three days two night trip in perhentian with Boon Wenshi Ang Elmer and the most important person MR.NICK.It may use two sentence to describe this trip it's FUN & HAPPYNESS.There may a short time but it will be a good memory in my mind at the corner all the times.Although we never went to REDANG but it still having some fun in others activities.A experiance that i don't even have in the pass,it just like a dream can't believe finaly i do it(swim).I PROUND OF MYSELF.There is always need to say bye in the end too 'too bad'.BUT after that we are going to continue the next trip kota bharu,we having a lot fun on taken picture.WE went to a SLEEPING THAI BUDHA TEMPLE and more...badly is the time to say bye too.3 of us CALL 'BNW' group sing along the song until reach kl.THE TRIP IS END.THANK YOU!~~~ :)

Time Ups

''Time ups'',wow...april now, the time pass too fast.today yesterday i am still a kid,now i am a big boy.Hope myself can be a kid back now,the kindness happyness is kid always have..enjoy to be with kid.when i am a kid i am curious to be a men,now i wanted to be kid back..hope everything just a dream.Freedom means a lot to me,in between the place i've been and where i'm going.When the world was young and warm,so in love and living for everything new.Flash a peace sign take a bow,though we may not know it now,things are never gonna be the sameBut it's much too late for now to be like yesterday and the time is running out and we still have to say Goodbye.

Paint in colour

''Paint in colour''it's meaningful word that i found in some web just now,mean if yourself not started to paint ur life in colours,you will forever in colour of black and white.The world is keep turning round and round in every second.i though that i am mature enough last time but i am not...now i think back i feel childish.Finaly,my wish had done now..finaly that i move out from the house...i am curios about outside lastime but now i feel regret to be here,but no choice...once i choose this way to continue my life mean i got to continue no matter how hard it will be.Last time i think everything is so easy,now i totally give up,i am tired,i miss them my friend my family...NOW,its just started the game to paint up my life in full of colour as the rainbow.Although how hard the way i got to walk ,i still got to walk,i cant let people look down on me,the rules of the game in this world is once u want people look up on you,first you got to look down on others...i lost my way now...i dunno wht should i do in the next...i feel scare to face everything now...how hope the rainbow gain in my life. :(

life is complicated

''Life Is complicated'',when the day i born to this world i know that myself can't regret because it's my life.A human life is much complicated,it can't to describe or explain.Our life is choose by the god as it like.God,i am tired you know that?is my life need to be like that or you are playing me around!This few months have many screen pass though in my mind,dunno why i suddenly think about it,i am trying to forget it i tell myself i am trying and trying but no matter how the screen still repeat repeat refresh it again and again.I miss you...hope you always here all the time to with me,when i need you,you will be here!You as a charger and i am a phone,phone can't without the charger,because the battery can't last longer without charger.As like me,i can't without you...i need you to with me to face everything.This year shall be my bad year,don't feel good a all,too much things happen on me,spm result is out soon,will the god still playing me...i hope not.God,give me last chance although is too late.my parent put too much hope on me,i scare i will make them disapointed again.....i beg you god :(